I don’t normally feel like this but I guess all my stupid feelings have surfaced into one giant little rant that’s about to be let out right now.
I know I’m going to sound a little conceited and ungrateful.. but believe me I’m not. If we’re cool then you know I can be very humble and the complete opposite of conceited.
Lately, I don’t even know why I have been feeling this way. I recently told two of my guy friends that I’ve never experienced what a boyfriend is or what a first kiss is… thinking about it almost EVERYONE at my age has been through that. Shieeeet, if anything half of the people from my school at this age already banged. Anyway, back to my topic, I think it’s my self esteem that’s been going a little down the drain lately :-( Am I not good enough for someone out there to even look at me? Like seriously, I wonder, “What the hell is wrong with me?” I know I’m not all that pretty nor am I ugly up the ass, and I think I’m decent.
Or maybe it’s just at the age that I am, and all these couples being affectionate with one another that’s making me feel a little on the lonely side.
But to be positive I know I am definitely worth the wait for someone very special to come along. I’m not desperate and I’m certainly not begging for affection… this was just what I needed to do to express my feelings. :-)